SHIZUKANAOTOKO's Xanga

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Tue, 09 Jan 2007 10:11:45 GMT

hey guys ^^ its been so long since ive updated this...now im a freshman at berkeley lol. i was such an emo kid for a while huh? kinda funny to look back now~ i feel kinda bad for neglecting this...i lost touch with like all of my xanga friends T_T ill try to be better and come back on more often! make sure to keep in touch =D

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 23:42:56 GMT

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Thursday, August 25, 2005

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 18:25:46 GMT

heyy havent been here in a while~~ its ayumi in traditional japanese clothing! yay! hahah. ^__^ azn pride~~ well she looks pretty as usual, but she looks like shes glaring so its not perfect T___T so i havent been updating for a while...ATDP ended but it was fun being a TA~ our class went karaoke which was fun as usual~ then kelly came back from china and im glad she liked it a lot hehe~ then we went karaoke again haha~ after that we went to great america~~ yesterday was frances's party which was fun~~ ummm..im goin to karaoke with my korean friends this saturday..yeah..i guess thats it. school starts soon. thats gonna suck -.-

Friday, July 08, 2005

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 16:57:16 GMT

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would you let me cry for you? until all my pain disappears... until my wounds are healed...

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would you let me fight for you? until all my fears vanish... until i can be by finally be by your side...

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 20:05:57 GMT

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even if i cross the boundary between dreams and reality, i can't be by your side...

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 17:19:15 GMT

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why won't the tears stop?

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why do I still think of you?

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why do you appear in my dreams?

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why can't i forget you?

Friday, April 29, 2005

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 22:25:09 GMT

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The footprints I left behind
Are distorted and muddy
But I don't regret them at all
I'm proud of them from the bottom of my heart

-winding road, ayumi hamasaki

hey wsup everybody ^__^ its been a while eh? well thx for reading my xanga~~ hmmm...yesterday night i read CLOVER volume 2. its such a unique manga~~ kinda sad tho. man, ive been so busy lately. the AP bio is coming up. better start studyin! welp ill update again lateR.

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 08:51:20 GMT

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I want to be left alone.
I want to escape to a place where no one knows me.
That I'm wrong about that, that it's my fault,
is all my heart has. I don't need tomorrow.

Can I cry as much as I want to? Until my tears wither away.
The white snow flows and muffles my tears.
Please help me.

Can I scream at the top of my lungs? Until my voice withers away.
The white snow will forgive me for everything.
Please.

I spread my arms wide. I just want to gather the shining snow.
But why? It's so fleeting...

-POWDER SNOW, ayumi hamasaki

too bad the snow has melted...theres barely any snow in california anyway...if i had a choice id make some ppl disappear -____- a certain someone.

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 00:12:53 GMT

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Sometime in that river
a piece of my broken dream floated by.

The promises you couldn't keep
have one by one caused me pain.

It's okay sometimes to think we live
to someday become happy.
Even though I know that the things
reflected in my eyes aren't all perfect...

-immature by Ayumi Hamasaki

well well..i guess i havent been here for awhile..ive been busy as usual -___- skool really sux. well this weekend is filled with hw...>.< wont be very fun~

Friday, February 11, 2005

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 00:41:18 GMT

Because you were there, I was always laughing

Because you were there, I was always laughing. I was always crying. I was always living.

If you weren't there I wouldn't have anything.

-TO BE, ayumi hamasaki

ambivalence~ always laughing yet always crying on the inside...that was and maybe still is me.